I was a staunch atheist for whom God kept showing incredible miracles, trying to get me to acknowledge His existence. I refused to see "The Light" for 35 years, during which time the heinousness of my crimes progressed, and I seemed to have to live from one hell to the next. This book is about what was going through my mind as I lived through these tragic events. Don't worry. In spite of living through these dark, dark years, this document ends on an uplifting and very high note.