I wrote this book out of many trials and tribulations, pain and heartaches that no one knew about and no one could see because I did such a good job of hiding it. I was inspired to write this book through one of the toughest moments of my life, when we lost our child during the worlds largest pandemic in a miscarriage. After that happened I began to think about all the many years where pain fueled the fire in me, where pain was prevalent but God still carried me through. The many years and maybe many moments where I had unseen pain. In this book I will talk about how I got through the many moments and my experiences through pain and suffering. The truth of why I'm still standing and still smiling.