These texts I have written under the influence of schizophrenia, during my relapses. I have gathered them and given a beginning and an end. I tried to give the reader a closer look at what this form of disability really is, moving away from the myths and poorly described summaries that circulate in the collective imagination, unfounded by the cinema and authors' literature, that cannot be in the mind of someone who suffers this condition. They have made a strong false cut, away from reality, giving sufferers an unreal image dangerous monsters and transforming the word schizophrenia into an insult.