I've always known what I wanted. As a kid I knew exactly what career I wanted, where I wanted to live, how much money I wanted to make, and how many kids I wanted to have. But boys ... were a mystery. I couldn't figure them out. I didn't know what I wanted from them or what they expected from me. So I avoided them.
In college I met a man who was very different from all the boys I knew. He made me want to know him. To crave his attention. And he made me work for it. I finally understood why guys my age never interested me. I needed the grit and the challenge of an older man.