It's popular in modern society to use psychological labels, spiritual bypasses and outside-in modalities to override experiences that are too uncomfortable for us to consciously feel. However, this way of functioning keeps us in an inwardly divided state, and therefore constantly searching outside ourselves for the intimate inner connection we need in order for us to deeply heal and spiritually awaken.

Conscious Whole Being Integration, in contrast, is an approach that encompasses the natural integrative relationship that already exists between deep psychological healing, bodymind awareness, and spiritual awakening as a means of bringing you into alignment with your natural rhythms.

This book will guide you in taking an inward dive into your own inner terrain; feeling, moment to moment, your unique relationship to the thought patterns and beliefs that have constructed who and what you perceive yourself to be. It's only through this direct experience that you can learn to consciously feel and engage all levels of your being-physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual-to bring about the natural and seamless integration of your soul's journey.

Deborah Hall has pursued her quest for universal truth and wisdom with a single-minded focus and a certain fierce adherence to principles. Her studies of psychology, bodymind integration, energy healing, meditation, and other Eastern spiritual traditions and practices led her to spend nearly two decades moving deeply inward. She created a private retreat lifestyle for herself, spending much of her time in silent meditation and self-exploration while moving naturally through the many stages and phases of deep healing, awakening, and whole being integration. In addition to her academic work, she has done in-depth study under the guidance of teachers in bodymind integration, Ancient Vedic knowledge and science, and spiritual enlightenment. In her study of psychology, Deborah earned a Master's degree in Clinical Psychology from Antioch University in Los Angeles, where she gained a deep understanding in Object Relations Theory, Family Systems Theory, and Trauma Resolution. In her study of psychology, Deborah earned a Master's degree in Clinical Psychology from Antioch University in Los Angeles, where she gained a deep understanding in Object Relations Theory, Family Systems Theory, and Trauma Resolution. Deborah also holds a license as a Marriage and Family Therapist in the State of Florida and a Bachelor of Science degree in Business Administration from Florida State University. Through her personal in-depth studies, she developed the ability to perceive and track her own energetic configuration, engage her patterns of conditioning, and clear her energetic distortions. Through these processes, she established a deep, natural way of restoring a more harmonious energetic life-force flow. Her direct experience has given her the ability to guide others through this challenging journey. It is her long, deep personal study-combined with her academic foundation and professional experience-that has given birth to and nurtured her own teachings: Conscious Whole Being Integration. For more information please visit: DeborahHall.net and ConsciousWholeBeingIntegration.com.

Contents Acknowledgments xiii Introduction 1 How to Successfully Use the Information in this Book 3 Chapter 1: The Root of Existence 5 Respecting Your Reality and Stage of Development 9 The Power-and Limitations-of Psychotherapy 12 Deep Healing and Awakening 14 Psychotherapy's Role . . . and Limits 16 What I Discovered 18 After-School Lessons 20 The Light Bulb Goes On 22 Chapter 2: The Integration of Spiritualityand Psychology 29 My Private Ashram 32 Another Course of Study: Vedic Knowledge 37 Why Psychotherapy Still Matters 38 The Intersection Between Psychology and Spirituality 39 The Deep Grooves of Conditioning 41 Chapter 3: The Body and the Mind Are Not Separate 47 Feeling Things as They Are 48 Natural Healing 51 The Process of Healing 55 Beginning the Journey 58 The First Steps 59 Exploring Through the Layers 60 The Infant Bodymind 62 Chapter 4: Complete Honesty 65 Complete Honesty at Work 72 The Transmutation of Suffering 74 The "Quick Fix" 80 The Bodymind Relationship 82 The Individuation Process 85 Being with Our Experience as It Is 87 Deep Healing Happens Degrees at a Time 93 The Uniqueness of Being 97 Chapter 5: Opening to the Infinite Flow of Life 101 How We Distort Our Natural Flow 102 Psychological and Spiritual Healing: Moving from Polarized Expressions Toward Integration 103 Resisting Our Current Experience 107 A New Perspective on Addiction and Mental Illness 110 Healing and Awakening without Using Labels 113 Working with the Physical/Energetic Component of Being 116 Emotions and Trauma Expressed within the Physical Body 118 A Healthy Exploration with Your Inner Terrain 120 Chapter 6: The Physical Expression of Your Beliefs 123 Including the Body in Your Self-Exploration 124 Being vs. Doing 125 Consciously Tracking Your Experience 126 The Stages of Conscious Being, Integration, andEmbodiment 129 Expressions of "Darkness" in the Unconscious 130 Not All Fear Is the Same 132 Taking Complete Responsibility for Your Experience 134 Waking Up within the Story 136 Successfully Working with Your Story 138 Freedom from Belief Systems 141 Recalibrating the Nervous System and Establishing New Wiring 143 Feeling vs. Talking 147 Chapter 7: Deconstructing the Many Facets of Conditioning 151 Working with the Physical Expression of Conditioning 153 Multiple Layers, Multiple Perspectives 155 Using Relationship Consciously to Engage Your Inner Dynamic 157 Infant Dynamics and Early Childhood Trauma 159 Inner Exploration Basics for Infant Dynamics and Early Infant Trauma 164 Chronic Hyper-Stimulation or Overstimulation 167 Love Addiction and Its Relationship to Infant Dynamics 170 From Trauma Recovery to Self-Awareness and Integration 173 The Pitfalls and Setbacks of Awakening on the Spiritual Path 175 Chapter 8: Conscious Whole Being Integration: A Practicum 179 Lesson One 180 Lesson Two 190 Chapter 9: Different Modalities and You 199 Living Consciously 202 Medical Modalities 207 Spiritual Modalities and Meditation 210 Chapter 10: Finding Your Facilitator 215 Searching with Discernment 215 The Student-Teacher Relationship 218 In Conclusion 221 A Final Note 223 About the Author 225