"Would you, please... just hold her until she dies?"

A two-year vigil. A hand-drawn grid. A refusal to let go.

Not one spiral notebook. Several. Opened and closed every two hours until the record of one small life filled more pages than anyone expected to need.

Every page holds the same hand-drawn grid ? columns ruled across lined paper: diapers, glucose, injections, feedings, time. A foster care diary reconstructed from original primary-source medical logs, documented across a 674-day vigil inside a quiet Michigan house while the medical system prepared for a different outcome. Two-hour cycles, recorded without interruption. High-risk infancy witnessed in real time by the woman who stayed.

In the margins of those columns, where the grid ran out of room, Judy Wright wrote the rest. The observations that had no heading. A weight that held. A response that shouldn't have been there. The question she kept returning to, long after the institution had moved on: What about breast milk?

Just Hold Her is a literary memoir built from those personal journals. A true story of fostering lived at the collision of maternal intuition and institutional protocol. Named Michigan's Foster Parents of the Year by the Michigan Supreme Court, Judy and her husband John had spent more than a decade navigating neonatal care and life-limiting diagnosis inside Michigan's foster care system, caring for dozens of medically fragile children. None of that prepared her for this. The medical narrative written in those margins became the most demanding record of all: the meticulous account of what it costs to stay when the system has already moved on.

For readers of Joan Didion's The Year of Magical Thinking and Kathy Harrison's Another Place at the Table, Just Hold Her is a meticulous exploration of love at the limits of authority. A caregiver memoir in the tradition of When Breath Becomes Air. A witness story, not a rescue story. This literary memoir is for anyone who has loved without guarantees, carried responsibility without certainty, or learned that presence is sometimes the only answer left.

"A fantastic read. A true testament to modern medicine, unconditional love, and compassion. I couldn't put it down."

? Linda Thulin, Nurse, Caregiver, Mother

What You Will Encounter

The hand-drawn grid: An intimate, date-driven record of two-hour medical cycles ? glucose readings, injections, feedings ? kept across a 674-day high-risk foster placement and reconstructed from the author's original primary-source medical logs and personal journals.

The margins: The observations that fell outside the columns, where maternal intuition pressed against the edges of institutional protocol ? where the most important questions refused to stay inside the lines.

The conflict: A foster mother navigating neonatal care, life-limiting diagnosis, and a child welfare system that had already begun making other arrangements ? documented in real time, without the distance of retrospect.

The recognition: The story behind Michigan's Foster Parents of the Year ? awarded by the Michigan Supreme Court ? and what more than a decade of medically fragile foster care did and did not prepare one family for.

The witness: A literary memoir that does not resolve into rescue. A true story of fostering that asks what it means to stay, to love without a guarantee, and to hold a child the world has already turned away from.

When you purchase Just Hold Her, you are helping extend that same commitment to the next generation of foster youth through the John and Judy Wright Scholarship in partnership with the Ennis Center for Children.

Judy Wright is a foster mother, caregiver, and advocate whose life has been shaped by the demanding, ordinary work of staying.
She and her husband, John, built their thirty-seven-year marriage around a shared conviction that children matter not abstractly, but concretely ? in the daily decisions of a household. While raising four children through years of relocation tied to John's aviation career, Judy became known as the parent who stayed late, showed up consistently, and did the quiet, behind-the-scenes work that sustains communities.
When their youngest child was sixteen, Judy and John began fostering. Over the next twelve years, they welcomed fifty-five children into their Michigan home, many of them infants and toddlers with significant medical needs. Their home operated in readiness: bassinet assembled at midnight, clothing sorted by size and season, doctor visits and court hearings woven into ordinary life. Judy learned to advocate within complex medical and child welfare systems, returning calls others avoided and asking the questions no one else was asking.
In 2012, Judy and John were named Oakland County Foster Parents of the Year and later Michigan Foster Parents of the Year by the Michigan Supreme Court. Their work helped inspire the John and Judy Wright Scholarship for Foster Children in partnership with the Ennis Center for Children.
After John's death, Judy turned to writing as an act of witness. Her debut memoir, Just Hold Her, is drawn from the spiral notebooks she kept during a two-year vigil caring for a medically fragile infant. She writes for foster, medical, and faith-aware communities about caregiving, presence, and the courage required to remain available when outcomes are uncertain.